You are the lucky one
I don’t typically watch sad movies. I don’t particularly like to have my heart pulled from my chest and stomped on by talented writers like John Green.
Am I scared? Probably. I tell myself it’s because I’ve seen and experienced so much pain in my life that I deserve to laugh.
The truth is, I am very scared. I have always been scared. Scared to fall into a pain that doesn’t let me go.
Isn’t that why most of us hide from pain?
It isn’t the moment when we get our hearts crushed, it’s the millions of moments that come after it that make us feel like we can’t breathe.
We can all handle a little pain but who survives it? They must be the lucky ones … Right?
I always thought that surviving my pain made me the unlucky one. I had to carry all this around. I had survived but why? What was the point?
Wouldn’t it have been better if I hadn’t survived? Surely that would have been easier.
I guess it was time I realized that my pain wasn’t about me. It never was. Just like the stories of those from history who suffered. They have all changed the world somehow. They have made it be what it is today.
They have taught us to be grateful for the ones we love, to live a life to the fullest, to have compassion for one another. We never know what someone else is carrying with them.
If you get the chance, watch The Fault In Our Stars (if you haven’t already). John Green (the incredible author of the story) might have some sick fetish about making his audience cry every 20 minutes …
But, who knows you might learn to love deeper, smile bigger (after you use up all the Kleenex in your house), and live your life to the fullest … You know, that fabulous life we are always talking about on here.
Keep pushing through. You are the lucky one. 🙂
What are you going through? Let me know in your comment below!